Preach it, Andy

Are you ever just struck sometimes with how entirely big the world is, and how entirely big you are not?  Tonight as I was cleaning up my room a bit, I was just thinking about my mundane task on a Sunday night.  Somewhere else in the world, maybe in multiple places, at the exact same moment, someone was having a different sort of moment.  What was that moment? I'm sure I'll never know.  Perhaps it was a sad goodbye, perhaps it was a terrible moment of fear, perhaps it was a moment of personal revelation.  Whatever it was, I was just struck with how the world works.   Though I would never purport that I have an iota of insight into how the world works,  I do know that life is made up of moments.  And my mundane task moment is someone else life changing moment.  To me, it is truly awe-inspiring to think of the wonderful orchestration that God executes in all of these moments.  He is with me in my menial chores, He is with the person that is going through a major upheaval in his or her life.   And that is fascinating to me.

Don't you hate it when you make sense?

I found this old post on my Peruvian blog tonight.

I think I should pay attention more about the enjoying the not so enjoyable moments in my life.

Thursday Night Musings of a girl with Everything and Nothing to talk about 

Michael Weinberg Photograph

Sometimes I feel like I can't keep up with myself. All these changes that I have gone through, am going through, and will be going through seem to hit me all at once, and I think- What are you doing Gillian? Why on earth would you get involved in all the things you've gotten involved with in your life? Why would you leave your home to go to a university on the other side of the country; and then why would you leave your home and university again to go live on the other side of the equator? Why did you pick the major you did? Why did you leave the career path to do non profit work for 3 years? Why are you leaving that life soon too? Why why why? And these questions start to weigh on me, and I think...Gillian, You don't make any sense.


But then, I remember why I did all that and why I will do a lot of other crazy things in the future that may not ever make sense to me, let alone anyone else.


God chose this path for me. I am exactly where God wants me to be right now. Everything that has happened in my life has been ordained by God and I all I have to do is enjoy it and enjoy Him. And then my new question becomes "Why are you even asking why?"


So enjoy life I will. I will enjoy the small things, the quiet moments, moments like walking by a beautiful garden that smells of roses and honeysuckle; listening to the summer sounds in my neighborhood; holding a puppy; going to the beach; short friendly conversations with people that I don't know, but already consider them friends.


I will enjoy the big moments too, the life-changers; the graduations, the goodbyes, the moves, the not knowing where I will be a year from now, the not knowing where I will be two months from now, the milestones of new family members, new friends, and everything in between.


And by golly, I will enjoy it....whether I like it or not.

Decisions, Decisions

I've been sitting here for the past 10 minutes just trying to think of something worthwhile to post.

Do I talk about how productive I was this past weekend?   Nah.

Maybe I should mention how my ESL classes are going?  Nope.

Perhaps I can discuss my latest baking endeavors?     I don't think so.

Nothing is really popping out at me, so I think I'm just going to leave you with this photo instead.

Yep...that'll do.